But God knows that I try to get it to.
For me, makeup is a source of false confidence. When I'm wearing makeup I feel prettier (as do most girls who wear makeup), and I feel confident. But it is purely false confidence, makeup is a crutch. It's a way for me to cover up who I am in order to try to be someone better.
When I wear a lot of makeup, what I'm saying to the world is that I don't have the confidence to be who I am, to show what I was born with and to rock it. I feel like I need to make myself look "perfect" to be accepted.
I hope that makeup will help me make friends, find guys, or even just make people like me more, but that's just a ridiculous way to be looking at life.
I can't try to get makeup to hide everything about me. Makeup won't cover up the dorky laugh that I have, makeup won't hide the fact that I love the thrill of scary movies, or the fact that I hate public speaking. It can't hide the fact that I can't dance, the fact that I eat way too much, or the fact that I am insecure.
It won't hide all of the imperfections that I am made of, and what I really need to do is embrace all of these imperfections. There are some imperfections that people LOVE about me, so why can't I love them about myself... I am a standard cookie cutter case of a girl who wears makeup to cover up the sadness, but that can't be the way I live forever, eventually I need to accept who I am and become the person I want to be from the inside out.
"Beneath the makeup and behind the smile I am just a girl who wishes for the World." - Marilyn Monroe
